so what are you waiting for?

All your hopes and all your dreams are what make your life worth living. But all the time in between now and your goals is just killing time? why do we always live our lives like this..we dont try to, its almost as if its how we were raised. Always told to follow our dreams and reach our goals but why were we never reminded to live for the moment when were kids? Making us look forward to our futures made us always live like were in a dentists office waiting..waiting for something big, better, new.

uhhh

Its late. i dont know what to do with myself. i cant sleep. i cant move. i feel completely Worthless. I watch as time flies by.

And we could pretend that all the time.....

When im done reading a book ive been reading for about an hour or so its always the same annoying feeling...like theres now a book going on in my head. It continuly repeats everything i do and think over and over. Like she walks slowly down the hall. I just wanna say shut up you stupid voice in my head..who are you anyways? It bothers me like i just read a book i am now part of. The awkward child being made fun of in my book now feels like its me and i become shy or uncomfortable. I see things a little differently for awhile after im done reading like looking through a looking glass and everything seems like another universe. I consult and talk to myself almost the rest of that day after and i feel like a freak. When im done being quiet and so drawn into my book everything seems so loud and fast in the actually world. I become very spaced out and amused with my own ideas rushing through my mind. Reading is almost like a natural high to me.